The ramblings of me.

2010-04-03T19:12:00.000-07:00

It was never in the sound...

2010-01-28T17:10:00.000-08:00

Trying to find God in a materialistic world is like trying to find the Eiffel Tower on Mars.

No song, words, books, college degrees, internet resources, or mystical herbal drinks will get you one step closer to God than you already are. In fact, the only way to get closer to God is to die. Give up. Stop trying. Fall. Let go.

Let go of the American dream. Let go of your job. Let go of your responsibilities, dreams, ambitions. Let go of self. Selfishness.

And find freedom.

Is the God who breathes stars trillions the size of the planet you live on, Who keeps the cosmos in perfect line, Who sees each and every sparrow that falls, is He not more important than what's on tv tonight? Is He not more important than your favorite song on the radio? Is He not more important than keeping up with the next new thing? Is He not more important than you?

God does not exist in any materialistic thing. Not even "Christian" merchandise. And it will never get you closer to Him.

Listen, as your empire of you falls, do you hear it? He's been saying it since before you were born, "I love you".

Breathe

2009-12-25T22:29:00.000-08:00

Dont let me fall again. I need You, keep me with You, don't let me be stolen again. I won't last any longer apart from You. My heart dies, my soul goes comatose, my life support gets unplugged. Give my a heart that never fails, remove my fear and distractions, and bring me so close to you my face shines like moses.

No more!

2009-11-04T11:17:00.000-08:00

I am so sick of the condemnation coming from the people of GOD. We get so caught up in the smallest things, that don't amount to anything. We end up with our noses in the air looking at those who don't look exactly like us as if they're stinking up our church building!

It makes me sick to hear that the lost see that the vast majority of the redeemed are living by the law. And that when those who express their freedom from the law by doing something out of the norm for a Christian, the lost condemn them!

GOD does not condemn me, why should you?

Where are GOD's redeemed? We're having such a love affair with the world, we don't want to give it up anymore! It is seen as a great sacrifice now to give up everything to follow GOD. A sacrifice too great for many. We won't let go! We hold on to our reputation, our prestige. We hold onto what others think about us more than what we ever care about what GOD thinks!

What has happened to the body of Christ? We've become like the world! We say we're Christians, but we don't act any different! We are ensnared in the same sin as the lost. And we don't see it as sin!

No longer can we get a full understanding of what we believe, a knowledge of how to give an answer to every question asked of us without years of seminary, countless conferences, and books by the great men of GOD.

We've lost touch with the Spirit within us.

We don't yearn for the heart of GOD! It isn't our priority anymore. We care about growth, but GOD has fallen of the list.

GOD is a jealous GOD. HE doesn't take second place. It's either first or nothing.

No more excuses.

The Debt of Love I Owe.

2009-07-23T20:09:00.000-07:00

Nice song. Have you heard it? Doesn't matter.

So, since GOD died for us, and redeemed us from our sins and all it's consequences, we owe GOD big time, don't we?

Some might go so far as to say we owe HIM everything. So, by that logic, we are obligated to give our all to Christ. In other words, we have to. It's mandatory that was sacrifice everything to live wholly and solely for GOD.

No, not really.

See, if GOD kept a record of what we owed HIM, we'd never be able to pay HIM back for everything HE's done for us. Not even if we spent the entirety of eternity enduring the worst of torture. It wouldn't amount to a tenth of a penny.

But you did see that, right? That little word "if"? GOD keeps no record of debt. Salvation is an absolutely 100% free gift. No strings. Hallelujah. There is not one thing you can possibly do to earn, or deserve salvation. You simply accept.

So no, we aren't obligated. We don't have to. We WANT to. It is our joy to live out our lives wholly and solely for GOD. We want to give up everything. We want to do everything we can to show the love of GOD, to further HIS kingdom, serve HIS people. There is no debt.

Bursting Bubbles

2009-07-23T19:51:00.000-07:00

What is love?

Well, I love ______. (my boyfriend/girlfriend, dog, cat, family, pizza, nature, etc.)

POP

Love is when you see this person, and it's like you're the only two people on earth. Birds fly, angels sing, and little hearts fly over their head. You just know that they're the one.

POP

That my friend, is a prime example of a thing we commonly refer to as lust.

What love is.

Love is patient, love is kind, it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 1 Corinthians 13:3-7

Love is not some mushy gushy feeling. It's not a feeling at all. Think about it, you don't go saying "I happy you." or, "I'm so in happy." or, "I feel so love today." Now do you? Then how can you say that love is an emotion, when it can't be said as one? Love involves emotion, no denying that, but it is not one.

What about who love is?

GOD, in HIS very nature, is love. Not has a lot of love, not feels much love towards things, IS LOVE.

Analyze that.

The attributes of GOD, and the characteristics of love. One and the same.

Independence?

2009-07-08T12:04:00.001-07:00

Why do we say the pledge of allegiance in church? Why do our hymnals contain songs that glorify our nation? Why do we have flags in our sanctuaries? Why do we pledge to a flag in the first place?

It would seem that pledging to a sinful nation, or it's flag, is dividing our allegiance to GOD. Our nation to be pledged to, our nation for allegiance is the nation of the Kingdom of GOD. Not an earthly man-made system that tries in vain to represent freedom. The only freedom we express is the freedom to be as sinful as one possibly can.

It seems that the meaning of separation of church and state has become that of one to keep the church out of everyone's way.

Independence? True freedom only comes from GOD. Not in a government, a scrap of material, or by which continent you happen to live on.

A true tragedy.

2009-05-10T13:19:00.000-07:00

Let's hear a tragedy. there once was someone very alive in the Spirit. Able to feel as the Spirit felt, with pain and agony at the lost and dying world. And yet joy and peace unspeakable. Such a passion to do something great, something, anything to change a sinner's fate. And yet nothing was found. A few vain attempts were made, yes, but perhaps the looking was not sufficient. And so, with all the pain of the world, and all the passion for glory, they tried to go back to sleep. To ignore all that was wrong, and stop feeling.

Sure, the Spirit lived on within, but was drowned out by the noise of nothingness. It was felt necessary to shut it up, there was nothing that could be done for the world, so why should the pain of the world be felt? All in vain, all in vain.

Now, the pain of the world is felt, but also the draw into it! The anguish of a soul lost to the depths of hell, but the partaking in that which sent them there. Lostness. Sin. A barrier has been placed between GOD and all else, and GOD tries to break it down!!! No atempt is made from the otherside. Woe and dispare to him that hides from GOD. To him that makes no effort to be with GOD.

Waste away, or do something great. There is no middle ground.

Bigger things.

2009-04-01T13:30:00.000-07:00

Have you ever looked up at the sky on a perfectly cloudless day, and seen it so perfectly blue? So perfect, and such blue that you can hardly believe it's real. And you realize it's not just one shade of blue, but every shade of blue known, and millions unknown.

Ever look at a tree, not even a tree, a cluster of leaves, a single leaf, and see something bigger? Marveled at how something so small, could produce fuel for something so huge. Watched as the sunlight reflected off the surface. Seen it turn colors as the seasons change.

Ever stare into the ocean, and see something more than water? Look into the face of another and wonder if something else is out there than this? Watch the sunset and wonder what's beyond? See the stars and the moon, and be left breathless?

And if you keep staring, and if you keep thinking, you may just think you catch a glimpse of eternity. You travel a path that awakens your heart and your spirit, and even if you continue about your day, you're somehow changed by those moments. The ordinary is not satisfying anymore. The routine is a steep sided rut you feel you should escape.

Congratulations, you are awakening.

Alive

2009-03-31T12:57:00.000-07:00

I'm so sick of all the rules and regulations and politics that have crept into Christianity. The view of Christianity has gotten so twisted I don't even want to be associated with the name.

Jesus said He came to bring Life. I am more alive than I have ever been in my entire life, and no one seems to grasp the concept that this is what we were saved for. Not to play politics or enforce everyone to "be good". We need to experience the life that GOD has given us, and share that life with others. We life each other up, not tie one another down with rules and regulations. We are to be such a shocking difference from the world, that the world wonders what we have that they don't.

Right now, we look just like the world. And it's awful. It's horrendous. Going out alone in the wilderness is much more appealing than going to a "worship service". No one is worshiping. It is a constructed time to show off just how godless we really are.

We need to wake up. But it sure looks like we're not going too.

Truth.

2009-02-02T16:53:00.000-08:00

We are at war. Not the "I might never ride in the infantry" war, the "Onward Christian soldiers, marching as to war." war.

Our heart is good. And since our heart is good, anything foul thing that is at work there, is not us. Reject it. It is not you, your heart is good.

Our heart is a treasure that is constantly trying to be stolen by the enemy.

The Enemy comes to kill, steal, and destroy. They will kill, steal and destroy. Don't act so surprised when it happens. Instead, be prepared for it, and fight back.

There is a glory in you that the enemy fears, and is bent on destroying before you act on it.

When listening for GOD's voice, don't expect a voice from the sky, or out of the distance, HE speaks from your heart, because HE lives there.

Anytime you agree with anything the enemy says, offers, or insinuates, you give them a foothold. Break your agreements with the enemy and hold onto the truth within your heart.

Consecrate your life to GOD daily, and realize the power and authority you have in Christ.

Fireproof

2009-01-18T11:42:00.000-08:00

Did you know that you are fireproof? That doesn't mean that fire won't come, quite the opposite. Fireproof items expect to be in fire. It means that you can endure the fire when it comes.

Expect to be in the fire? What, did you think the Christian life would be all daisies and roses? We're in a war! We have an enemy that is trying to destroy us! You don't think that disease and famine come from GOD do you? It's war. You don't think that murder and rape come from GOD do you? It's war. The old excuse of "it's GOD's will" is obsolete. We are in a war unseen. Surely, GOD can use what was intended for evil, but GOD's will is not evil.

Happy new year.

2009-01-02T15:38:00.000-08:00

Made your resolutions yet?

May I offer a few suggestions?

This year, be changed. Be the difference you were made to be. Stand up for Christ when all others are silent.

Go. And do. Do the will that GOD has placed within you, and do it, because if you don't, you'll never know how things could have been if you had. How many lives could have been changed, how many lives could have been saved.

Lift up your brothers and sisters in Christ. We are a nation, and as a nation we should be united.

Live without fear.
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Instead let your life be ruled by peace.

Stop listening to satan's lies, instead, hear GOD's truth.

GOD loves you. GOD will never leave you, even if sometimes HE seems far away. GOD thinks you are beautiful. GOD knows everything you have and ever will do wrong, and HE has and will forgive them all. GOD thinks you are worthy. GOD has a special plan in mind just for you. GOD thinks you can do it, becuase HE is your strength.

So give in. Give in to something heavenly, and let GOD change you and use you in ways that will forever impact those you touch.

Happy New Year. Use it.

Hanging on

2008-11-20T19:32:00.000-08:00

More often than not it seems that we hold onto the chains that tie us down, things we need to let go of, but it seems we'd rather not.

What does it say to the world when we are free, and yet choose to stay in bondage?

We have eternal life and freedom. We need to realize that eternity does not start when we die. Eternity is now. We have life now. We have freedom now, joy everlasting now, salvation now.

We hold onto the past, but we can't change it.

We hold onto the future, but there is no promise of it.

We hold onto our sin, but it has been forgiven.

Let go, and hold onto GOD. HE will lift you up, not tie you down. Let go.

Pray this prayer....

2008-11-10T17:39:00.000-08:00

And you shall be saved.

Sounds nice doesn't it? And it's usually a very nicely worded prayer too. Probably written by someone with good intentions, well educated in grammar and spelling. Possible a Christian themselves.

And boy am I sick of seeing them.

Let me spell this out for you, THERE ARE NO WORDS IN THE HUMAN LANGUAGE THAT WILL GET YOU SAVED. Binary, or Maritain, or Klingon either.

Then why do you pray?

Here's a little picture of someone whose about to get saved.

Broken.

If your lucky to force together a cohesive sentence at all, it still doesn't matter. Your heart is crying out to GOD in an incomprehensible language, and some people find they haven't said a word at all, and they're saved. Just like that.

It's your heart, and GOD. You give up, and GOD does it all. No fancy shmancy prayer needed. Just whatever comes out. And if that happens to be fancy, or stutteringly simple, or nothing at all, it doesn't matter.

Conformity

2008-11-10T17:13:00.000-08:00

We are supposed to be set apart from this world, something different. But what do we do? We invite the world in, we set ourselves up to look like the world so that the world will join us. But what are they joining if it's not different??

They've made a Bible that is a magazine. Filled with gossip and pictures of celebrities. Why did they make it? Because Christians are to afraid to put out a Bible on their coffee tables, or out in their waiting rooms. So we conform to the world to put our minds at ease, and so that someone might possibly mistake it for some junky gossip magazine, and read it.

What is wrong with us? Why are we conforming, when the Bible that they disgraced clearly says not too? WAKE UP! We are in a Spiritual crisis and it is not going to get better when we are making merchandise to make people feel better, instead of getting out there and winning souls from an eternal pit of fire. That's right. People are going to hell, right now, and we're so concerned about offending others, we're just going to ignore that aren't we? Well, when they get to hell, and know that you didn't help them, they might be a little offended.

Somebody, that you know, right now, is on their way to hell. Are you gonna help them? Or are you scared of offending them? Perhaps you should make it seems nice and cheery, worldly even. Why, everyone else is doing it. Why can't you?

Get your facts straight people. When sinners die, they go to hell to be tormented forever.
Christian life is not all miracles and blessing, growing hurts, but GOD is great and Merciful, and Gracious, and will never break you.
We are different, and we need to start acting like it. Appealing to the world is not one of those requirements, they should look at us and see that something is different, and wonder what it is.
Our life is not our own, our fears and apprehensions no longer matter. GOD says go, we go. End of story.
Stop conforming to this vile temporary world we live in. Don't you know our home is above?

Signs

2008-10-27T12:20:00.000-07:00

Everybody's trying to figure out what they want to be when they grow up, which path to choice, which career choices to make.

We ask slightly different questions. What's GOD's plan for my life? Where's HIS direction?

Luckily All we really have to do is follow. Now we can try and sycoanyalize how and where and why and even who, but all that will do is overanalyize. It's very simple, we do not need a sign every ten feet, if there was a sign ten miles back that your on the right road but there's a turn you need to make, you need to make the turn and not get in a frenzy because there's twenty miles until your exit and you haven't seen the next sign yet.

We will never be assured that we are headed in the right direction if we don't read the Bible, but if we need to constantly be reassured, we have a trust issue and need to fix it fast or we're gonna have a head on collision and crash.

GOD is our Father. HE is not going to hurt us beyond repair, for no reason, or leave us. HE is always right there, and if HE said it once, why does HE have to say it a million times? Just go.

Nothing to believe in.

2008-10-22T09:28:00.000-07:00

Why is it, that all these singers put everything into this one song that means absolutely nothing? They pour everything into singing this one song, and then they do it again and again and again, untill it's a whole album of nothing. Then a whole career that they've poured themselves into, and they're left with nothing they can believe in, and a whole lot of people believing in them.

I don't get it. How can you put so much of yourself into nothing, and say that it's fulfilling?

On the other hand, Becoming nothing, and being poured out to GOD while GOD is poured into you, THAT is fulfilling. That is worth doing. That is something to believe in.

When GOD says go.

2008-08-05T09:31:00.000-07:00

When GOD says to do something, HE already planned how it would be accomplished, how it would come together, and the end result of it all. When GOD says go, everything is already in place for it to happen, all we have to do is go.

When GOD says go, and we say no, all we are doing is hurting the kingdom of GOD, and furthering ourselves from HIM. We have to remember that's it YAWEH's, not mine.

When GOD says go, we have no right to say no. HE rescused us from the pits of eternal hell, paid the ultimate price for our souls, and loves us inspite of who we are. It is our duty to do as GOD commands, and we should expect nothing in return because we have been given freely in the kingdom of GOD.

When GOD says go, we go. There is no other understanding.

When GOD says go, HE picked you for a reason. You are the one HE chose to further the kingdom, and HE will not abandon you in HIS will. You are HIS, and HE will not leave you to destruction by the hands of the enemy. HE loves you. Isn't that enough? Shouldn't we want to share HIS love with the rest of the world? What does it say when we won't? GOD has a purpose and a plan, HIS will is greater than ours. Let's do that.

What have we to fear?

2008-07-28T18:46:00.000-07:00

Most people on this planet have at least one fear. Heights, the dark, bugs, death.

What about Christians? What about the redeemed? We know that we have a place in heaven, so we don't need to fear death. It's rather something to look forward to. (Not in a morbid way or anything, but we're going to be with our Savior and GOD for all eternity, I think that's something to look forward to, don't you?)

So, if we don't fear death, what else is there to be afraid of? I mean really, if it kills us, we go to heaven for all of eternity to live with our LORD and Savior. If it maims us, we wait out our short lives and go to heaven to spend all of eternity with our LORD and Savior. If it's not going to do any phisical harm to us, we live out a normal life and then go to heaven to spend all of eternity with our LORD and Savior.

Our GOD has every detail of our lives already planned out, and HE knows what HE's doing. HE's not going to inflict anything on us for no reason. HE has all power, and dominion, and HE is our strength.

Think about, we have the strength of the one who created the entire universe and all that is within, and holds it together in HIS hand. So, tell me, what do we have to fear?

And why do I need a reason?

2008-07-24T17:03:00.000-07:00

A reason to praise GOD. Really now.

We're talking about the GOD that created the universe and all that is in it, who loved us so much when we were unworthy, and sent HIS only Son to die in our place. HE saved us from an eternal separtion from HIM and now we need a reason to praise HIM? Have we lost our minds?

Look outside your window, see that tree, or yard full of grass? GOD made that. He knows every cell and every atom, and subatomic paricle that we can't even see.

Look in the mirror. GOD made that too. HE knows you inside and out, not one hair on your head gos uncounted.

Look in your memories, see those sins you did? Know that wrong that you commited? GOD forgave that. HE forgave you in the most painful way ever, HE died. And then HE took the sins, and put them behind HIMSELF. Behind GOD. That doesn't even exsist, so niether do they.

So when you have to go and ask GOD to prove HIMSELF, that HE exsists, and the HE loves you, and why you should praise HIM, maybe you should just open your eyes. All the proof is right there.

Still need a reason to praise GOD? HE is. That's the only reason we need.

We are SAINTS.

2008-07-21T08:47:00.001-07:00

If you are a Christian, a true born again believer of Christ, you are a saint.

I don't like it when people say, "well, I'm just a sinner saved by grace, so I'm going to mess up."

WE ARE NOT MADE TO MESS UP!!!!

Get this, we are completely new in Christ, the old man has passed away and all that. We are to be like Christ, being saved gives us no excuses for messing up. It's still wrong. We should be doing everything in our power to NOT mess up, because it's NOT ok.

We are NOT just sinners saved by grace, and although that might be a very nice song to sing on Sunday's and whatnot, it's not something to take to heart. It's not an excuse, because we are different. We are supposed to be set apart form the rest of the world, but when we say it's ok to keep messing up and not do anything about it, how is that different from the rest of the world??

We are supposed to be holy, as GOD is holy, and making the same mistakes over and over is not part of those quailifications. We are human, and we will fail, but we can avoid repeated failures. We can learn from our own mistakes, and the mistakes of others. Just because someone makes a mistake, doesn't mean you have to make the same one. We don't have enough time to make all the mistakes for ourselves. We shouldn't want to.

We should be striving to be like Christ, and do the things that GOD wants us to do. If we would just listen to what GOD is trying to tell us, so many things wouldn't be happening. Christian homes wouldn't be falling apart at the seams. If we would listen and do, instead of just trying to figure it all out ourselves, how much more we could do in this temparary place.

We are saints. We are different, and set apart. We need to start acting like it.

The things we do.

2008-07-18T10:57:00.000-07:00

When GOD calls us to do the things HE has planned, we often look at the things that make us unquailified. To short, to tall, to big, to dumb, to weak, to ugly.

What if other things said that?

What if a leaf said that it didn't belong, and just fell off. That tree would not be the way it was made to be. Well, one leaf may not seem to make that much of a different, but what about ten? Fifty? One hundred? What if half of those leaves on the tree said I'm not good enough and just refused to be there anymore? It wouldn't be a very good tree now would it. It might even be cut down because it seemed to be dying.

What if a thread in an ornate rug said I'm just to ugly to be here, and popped off and left. The whole rug might come unraveled. A whole rug can become worthless because one thread refused to do it's job.

What if a telephone pole just desides that it's to weak to hold up those wires all day long and flops over on the ground? A whole neighborhood could be with power for weeks or more until a replacement is found.

When GOD calls you, HE knows what HE's doing. There's no reason to say no, because GOD is our strength. We cannot see the beauty and purpose for what we are called to do, because we cannot see the whole picture. One thread cannot see the whole rug, and one leaf cannot see the whole tree as it sways in the light of the sun.
We cannot see all the things GOD is doing through us as we sway through the glory of HIS Son.

It's not always easy, and it's sometimes the very last thing we want to do. But that is why GOD is our strength. We can't do it alone, and we don't have to. GOD is with us, and HE promised never to leave us. Even if you can't feel HIM there, HE is. So take heart, and go.